there is a ship, let's sail.

broken_nerve @ 2006-05-09T21:51:00

2006-05-10T01:59:35Z

i'm seriously more screwed up then i have ever been. i feel like i have been "drug" down the road. every day i feel like i have something to hide from. jake came into my like this year, and now it's over. the last two years i tend to view everything in a different perspective, and fun is hard to accomplish. people are more then people to me, they are each one life. that one thing that if your lucky you get your shot at. maybe thats why its so hard for me to move on, not only with guys but people. i cant understand how someone can love another and then be "over" them. your getting rid of a life, and in your life passing up that chance to have that one person or how ever many people just step out of your life, not sharing it. i mean i understand not sharing your life with everyone you meet. i also know i cant just stay with that one person for the rest of my life, but contact would be nice. just in some form. but then thats gets me to thinking well you have to learn to let go. that ties things together. there is an ending maybe not a complete ending but there is always some sort of stop. but still right now at this point in my life i feel sort of stuck. i have the worse time making up my mind, even about things that do not really matter. one minute i'm okay with how things are going then the next i feel myself stuck in the mist of things, a mess. i go crazy, and no one can bring me out of it. i have felt love this year, and that was a big step for me. but now i feel like i'm about to start another chapter to life, and to be honest i'm scared of what might happen next. i cant seem to do anything on time. well i'm nuts i guess. it should just be known i mean well most of the time.
maybe i'm just fucked.

broken_nerve @ 2006-03-02T16:57:00

2006-03-02T21:57:34Z

i am happy.

broken_nerve @ 2005-05-30T19:36:00

2005-05-30T23:36:55Z

fuckin' two more days of exams and it's summer

broken_nerve @ 2005-05-07T19:51:00

2005-05-08T00:04:47Z

So it's a saturday night,
and im home writing two fucking term papers.

i want to be with my friends tonight.
i miss megan and bre so fucking bad right now..

broken_nerve @ 2005-05-02T13:04:00

2005-05-02T17:07:40Z

i have so much to fucking do.
does it ever stop?

7 for $1.00

2005-04-17T18:22:50Z

By the way I'm addicted to maruchan ramen noodle soup.

get into the grove

2005-04-17T18:07:01Z

ello,

I'm on spring break now. Want to get together?

broken_nerve @ 2005-03-27T00:20:00

2005-03-27T05:20:56Z

If you read this,
even if I don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

your the water in my shower!

2005-03-25T15:24:10Z

Jewish Fest!.....

<---my boyfriend.

the first band<3

second band....i know them, i do.

Will + Catie = couple of da year.

an oldy but a goody....

Bank hold up & ezBreezy.

i swear i am not crazy.

Catie + Bre = best friends.

The End.

broken_nerve @ 2005-03-19T15:12:00

2005-03-19T21:17:20Z

<we met him at the airport. he was adorable, and so smart. he is in kindergarten and reading at level 8.

we met a pet turtle.

we ate at this little italian place, that wasnt well known...but all these famous people had ate there.

too beautiful.

at the diamond headache clinic.ooh yes, the L train.

the bottom lounge, feb. 22 LUCERO,THE HONORARY TITLE, AND THIS IS ME SMILING.this is me smiling.

so we met.

lucero was next.

he was just too cool.great night. great show.<too hot. the trip was amazing. i love chicago, thank you megan.

back in town. some old pictures.

some pictures i have been meaning to post.

tell me "we are okay"

2005-03-12T15:10:18Z

I'm back from the everglades.
Things are not perfect, but i have decided to make the best of my life.
So i woke up early took a bath and danced till my feet wouldn't allow any more.
Now I'm going to watch a movie and paint my nails.
I wish people could have trust and see past the past.
By the way i still need to post my pictures from chicago, i would love to share them.
-catie

broken_nerve @ 2005-02-26T12:41:00

2005-02-26T17:41:55Z

i crashed my car..

broken_nerve @ 2005-02-17T21:44:00

2005-02-18T02:46:06Z

fulfill me.

broken_nerve @ 2005-02-06T00:31:00

2005-02-06T06:32:24Z

my husband.

my boyfriend or what have you.

roadies.

i wish they weren't so blury.

Neva Dinova was amazing...and the lead guy was extreamly nice. i got to meet him.

conor and neva dinova.

just fucking simply amazing. it was in the most adorable theater.

it will not be my last visit.

my beautiful friend bre at the show.

love is bestfriends.

bre at the cookie place.

why must boys run?

for conor.

its was great. bright eyes it my favorite band. conor is my favorite male. it was very very very very very good. his presence lifted me. his voice shattered me. his sight took me. his way of being grasped me. i have never been so content in my entire life. i will never forget last night sitting there gazing at the stage while my ears and spirit took it all in. i will see him again...im sure of that. i would love to meet him one day, many questions are brewing. he simply conects to me, i know i sound extreamly life every other girl in saying this..but that is not the case ( i dont like him for him looks and how he sounds..my cath is deeper). i would love to share last night with readers, but it couldnt be done. words cant express. maybe its just me i have fallen in love with conors ways of thinking and his expressions. his voice his talent. call me over the top, if you wish..i just know whats good. well thought i would share.

hope everyones lifes are going swell. mines cheering up. im crazy.

good night <3 im true blue.

woo me.

2005-02-02T22:38:41Z

<- my cowboy on saturday.

shane . ohhhhh yeah.

oh how i love her.some older photos.

and there are some pictures.

fuck you and your make believe love story

2005-02-01T02:07:54Z

I'm in need of a lover.

broken_nerve @ 2005-01-31T19:14:00

2005-02-01T00:15:42Z

kiss me.

broken_nerve @ 2005-01-20T23:46:00

2005-01-21T05:09:05Z

as my lights burn out.
i watch the dim, wavelengths of light will fall and rise.
like the heart with in.